Anxiety…

Part of the reason of failure for me happens to be anxiety.

If I start craving something I get anxiety if I don’t get it. I will try to eat something healthier than what I am craving but the anxiety will cause me to keep eating until I am satisfied or I get what I am craving.

One of the main reasons, well the only reason I suppose, I haven’t been able to work out like I would like is my fear of going to the gym alone. I don’t know why but my anxiety gets crazy and I damn near get a panic attack. I can say I am going to go, get dressed, get in my car, pull up to the gym but I will not be able to get out. I recently got a gym membership and I haven’t gone ONCE. It has been OVER a month now. I feel like if I had someone to go with me the first time to at least get the initial freak out out of the way it will help conquer the fear and anxiety to keep going but I just haven’t done it yet.

I have tried going once by myself, I got on the tread mill, and after 5 minutes I almost had a panic attack and had to leave. I do not know what it is, but I will get over it. I will conquer this. I will be able to go to the gym so I can continue this journey of a healthier lifestyle and lose the weight I need to.

I wanted to address this issue now while I was still early in the journey so I can put it out in the universe and kick this anxiety’s butt. Say “SCREW YOU” I am outing myself, outing my gym anxiety and hoping it will help me overcome it so I can also look back in a couple of months and say HA. I did it. And if anyone else is like me and has this irrational fear as well, you can read this and see that is do-able. I have not done it yet, lol, but I will get there. . .We can all get where we want to be with the right mentality. Our minds are stronger than we can possibly imagine. So when you think you can’t possibly go ‘there’, you can.

*Of course I have anxiety in all sorts of situations I deal with, I was using my anxiety of eating and the gym in particular though for this post, everyone deals with anxiety in different ways and forms*

❤ Much Love and Peace to all ❤

Green, Purple, Pink…

The less I eat out and more “green” I eat… the more I am actually ENJOYING IT. I had a “wrap bowl” today which had lettuce and spinach and normally I would somewhat gag as I forced myself to eat through it engorged in ranch or something but today I actually was longing for the taste in a weird unfamiliar way I was not used to and that is when I realized I was becoming USED to eating healthier and actually ENJOYING and LIKING healthier food. They say it happens but I did not know it actually does… THANK GOD I don’t have to gag through greens for much longer 😉

and I might actually start craving it!

🙂 Okay quick post ended ❤ Much love to everyone!